GODSPEED LITTLE CHILD

...So came a thought to mind,

a painful truth choked my throat with a silent sob

a thin film of tears clouds my vision

when realization dawns

of what bitter creatures idealists are

Once innocence is lost

and the pink glasses of childhood-if there ever were-was lifted

thus unveiled the ever imposing,

infinitely intimidating cold world.

When dreams are hammered to submission by reality,

when one is forced to one's knees,

drowned in the bitter bile of thick sickening selfishness of human truths

My Lost Heart Odyssey

I sucked in a lump of air
And I tasted bile
I stare at the mirror and I see a villain
For guilt and pity are poisoning my mind
And I am but a weak mortal.

Providence touch my soul
Relieve me of this burden
For by mine own deeds I am encumbered
In my half-chosen ignorance I break my sacred seal
Again I feel tainted
Again I have wronged me.

I seek shelter and found none
For I know that from my pack I am now a criminal.

No solace for my guilty heart
No peace for my torn integrity
Serenity is but a distant dream
A utopia for one forsaken

To find blame which only I can claim.

Sliver of Sincerity

...Extending the tendrils of intuition

Reaching out for the ephemeral existence of shy hopes and muted wishes

Here is me,

The remnants of old glory

The obelisk of past arrogance

Standing defiantly against the tide of time

A promise from a forgotten age.

Rise young souls and be not me...

[ Original post here]

Unspoken

...

Blaming is long overdue,
Nothing more to gain of unnecessary pain
Tis not of vengeance I stay away
But the sense of inadequacy that bounds my mind

I'll be gone till I find a better me

...

Creedleon : Incognito

I feel so tired,

weary and crumpled

the relieve that I draw from the pain of self pitying

the fake consolation that has been my drug

all along

all this time

...

I cast down my mask

only to have my face scarred

over and over

and over

...

Here I am,

here I stand

I am but a wanderer

with limping steps I tread my path

from unknown to uncertainty

I have journeyed

...

Creedleon : Point Break

I don't really know what to write.

In a few days time I'll be leaving this beloved hometown of mine...

shadows of the past are tempting me to stay

stay and put my life on hold once again...

Here I stand, the weary vagrant that has yet to found his shelter.

Time is taking its toll on me,

life is forcing me to hit the ground

Endlessly pounding and pounding on me till I fall

and continue to pummel me

keeping me down every time I try to get up...

For every love that I've found

there's always been pain awaiting to unfold...

I grow scared of hoping,

worn out by expecting

and repeatedly disappointed...

Created on June 12 2010

Treading my path to an empty tomorrow it felt

With the searing pain of yesterday

as I depart from today

 ...

Here I stand,

Pondering over my point of origin

Considering the destination

And here I stand

Here I see

As we slowly fall one by one

taken not by death, but

devoured by life itself

...

Creedleon : Proximity Alert

 Between Dreams and Nightmares

My vision narrowed,

The whole world fades before her presence

She's everything to me now

...

My heart aches to embrace her

My arms craves her

But she cast a spell to keep me away

...

 I tried, 

I'm still trying,

and I will keep trying

till I win her heart one more time

...

Creedleon : Distress

 A Moment of Silence

By every passing second,

I grow colder.

Forgetting who I am,

as my feelings slowly dissipates,

fading into the cold pride

where I've been keeping the weakest part of me

of of harm's way

...

Created on March 22nd 2010

Pain Revisited

You didn't fail me,

you failed yourself,

I've tried but it seems that I've failed you too,

for that I apologize.

Created on September 29th 2009

The Empty Shell 


Suddenly I feel so restless,

so burdened,

so tired as if the weight of the world

is placed upon my shoulders

...

Creedleon : Memory 06

Fading Dreams

Here I stand, wondering

...

The uncertain tomorrow that hangs heavy on one of my shoulders

while the joy of yesterdays clings just as burdening on the other

...

Creedleon : Memory Fade Out

Blue Dream Serenade

...as I learn to harness it, 

I found that it was never meant to be harnessed, 

the more I tried to tighten my grip, 

the faster it's slipping away from me, yet I'm too afraid to let it go...

A Poem on Loneliness

CHANCE MEETINGS

by: Conrad Aiken (1889-1973)

In the mazes of loitering people, the watchful and furtive,

The shadows of tree-trunks and shadows of leaves,

In the drowse of the sunlight, among the low voices,

I suddenly face you,

Cloths of Heaven

Cloths of Heaven

by. William Butler Yeats

  

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,

Enwrought with golden and silver light,

The blue and the dim and the dark cloths

Of night and light and the half-light,


I would spread the cloths under your feet:

But I, being poor, have only my dreams;

I have spread my dreams under your feet;

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

[quoted from here]

Serenity Prayer

The Serenity Prayer  



by Reinhold Niebuhr
 

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

 [Quoted from here]

A Motivational Poem

Playing The Game


By Author Unknown


Life is a game with a glorious prize,
If we can only play it right.
It is give and take, build and break,
And often it ends in a fight;
But he surely wins who honestly tries
(Regardless of wealth or fame),

The Optimist Creed

Promises to Yourself


By Christian D. Larsen


Promise yourself….
To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind;

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet;

To make all your friends feel that there is something in them;

To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true;

To think only the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best;

0°

"Cinta bukanlah pilihan, hanya paksaan nasib yang kadang menjadi awal bahagia tapi sering menjadi sinisme hidup yang pahit...
Jika bisa memilih, inginkah kamu menghapus cinta yang melukai?

Lihatlah kembali, karena yang kini kau sesali mungkin adalah semua yang dulu kau simpan di sudut terindah hati, yang kau nikmati dalam setiap detakan jantung...

Mungkin tak indah yang kukatakan, tapi kata-kata indah tanpa kejujuran akan menjadi racun yg membawa lebih banyak kepedihan..."

"Love is never a choice, fate forces it upon us to be our path to happiness but often turn up to be a bitter sarcasm of life...
If you had the choice, would you erase a love that hurts you?

Look back to your past, because something that you now regret maybe the one thing you used to kept dearly in the deepest side of your heart, something you once cherish and enjoy with every beat of your heart...

This may not be beautiful, but soothing words without honesty in it will poison you with more sadness..."

A Face In the Shadows

A face in the shadows,
lingering in the corner of my mind

A face in the shadows,
dancing in the depth of my pains

A face in the shadows,
the reality that seems unreal

A face in the shadows,
an existence denied